Ma Yoga Vivek

Vivek takes sannyas in April 1971, and is osho’s caretaker from 1973 onwards

Osho- I had a girlfriend when I was young. Then she died. But on her deathbed she promised me she would came back. And she has come back. The name of the girlfriend was Shashi. She died in 47. She was the daughter of a certain doctor in my village, Dr. Sharma. He is also dead now. And now Shashi has come as Vivek to take care of me. Vivek cannot remember it. I used to call Shashi Gudiya, and I started calling Vivek Gudiya also, just to give a continuity.

Life is a great drama, a great play-it goes on from one life to onother to another.

Yesterday, someone came to me in the morning, and I told her to take sannyas. She was bewildered. She said to give her time to think and decide, at least two days. I said to her “who knows about two days? So much you require… take it today, this moment.” But she was not decisive, so I gave her two days. The next morning she came and took it. She has not taken two days. Only one day. I asked her, “why? You have been given two days, why have you come so soon?” she said. “At three o’clock at night, suddenly I was awake, and something went deep within me telling me, “Go take sannyas”

It is not a decision that she has made, But a decision that has been made by her very deep-rooted mind. But the moment she came in the room I knew her, I knew that mind which she came to know twenty hours later.

So when I say take sannyas, there are so many reasons with every person to whom I tell it. Either he has been a sannyas in the last life, or somewhere in the long journey he has been a sannyasin.

I had given her another name yesterday, but today I had to change it because I gave her that name in her indecision. Now I am giving her a different name that will be a help to her. When she came this morning, she herself was decided. That other name was not needed at all. And I have given her the name Ma Yoga Vivek, because now the decision has come through her Vivek-her awareness, her consciousness. (16 April 1971)

Ma Yoga Vivek

Here is some information on Vivek’s death Ma Yoga Vivek, English disciple of osho since 1971, legal name Christine Walfe, was cremated at the burning ghats at karegaon park on December 9 1989, two days before her birthday.

Sannyasins in the commune were then told that she was being treated for hormonal unbalance which made her very depressed and she committed suicide while feeling so.

There were unsubstantiated Rumours of heroin overdose. Either suicide or drug overdose, no outopsy was conducted. Though once close to Osho, she had fallen from her grace in Crete in 1986. She had gone to Bombay with a German friend and supposedly was asked to come back. The German friend was not present at the funeral and was not seen later

In 1986 Osho was to say-

Vivek has been for sixteen years with me. When she came she was only twenty years old; now she is thirty six, almost twice the age. And all these sixteen years, day in day out, she has been taking care of me with as much Love as possible, with a deep devotion.

My sannyas is the most complicated phenomenon - OSHO

Sannyas needs courage more than anything else, because it is a declaration of your individuality, a declaration of freedom, a declaration that you will not be any longer part of the mob madness, the mob psychology. It is a declaration that you are becoming universal, you will not belongs to any country to any race, to any religion you will be religious but you will not be Muslim, Hindu, or Christian. You will love Jesus, Buddha and Muhammad because you will be religious, but you will not belong to any dogma or creed and you will not belongs to any state, any nation, because all those boundaries are false, all these divisions are ugly. The earth is one, and sannyas is a declaration of the oneness of humanity.

It certainly needs courage. It also needs courage because it is getting rid of tradition, of the past, of history. It is trying to live in the present according to your own light, not being dominated by the dead, not being dominated by history. To be free of history is such a tremendous joy, but it is also a risk, because then you are left alone, then you don’t have any guidelines, any maps to follow. But that’s the beauty of it too. When you don’t have any guidelines your own consciousness rises to take the challenge. When you don’t have the map you start exploring on your own. Then life becomes an adventure.

Sannyas is to live innocently, to live non-cleverly, to live non-calculatingly, to live without mathematics, without logic. Sannyas means saying goodbye to Aristotle... To live like a madman, and to live intensely and passionately. And the first step is to drop out of the past. People drop out of society- that is not much help. Because even if you drop out of society, you carry your past, which has been made, cultivated, conditioned by that society. You can go against society but you are part of society, so I don’t say drop out of society- I say drop out of your past. That is the real dropping out of society.

And about the change of your name is just indicative that you disown your past-that now you are no longer continuous with the past. Of course you cannot erase it, it is there. But increasingly you will see that it belonged to somebody else, that it is as if you had dreamt about it or you had seen a movie or read a novel you are totally separate from it.

Sannyas is new for you, always choose the new, always choose the unknown, and that has made all the difference, life grows only by choosing challenges. Life grows only by going into the storms. Life grows only by risking, gambling, sannyas needs courage. The old sannyas was not so dangerous. People think my sannyas is easier than the old, ancient idea of sannyas. But they are utterly wrong. the old sannyas  is very simple because it  expected, not only expected but demanded—that you renounce the world, it was simple, you went into a monastery, you live there, undisturbed,  undistracted by the world. Meditation becomes your whole life with no distractions. It was a monotonous life. The word ‘monastery’ and ‘monotony’ come from the same root. So does the word ‘monk’. Life was settled, monotonous, repetitive, the same, and the world was left far behind. It was easy.

My sannyas is far more complex. You have to live in the market-place and yet live as if you were living in a monastery. You have to accept all the distractions of life and yet remain undistracted. You have to be in the world and not be of it. I have thrown a great challenge to you. The old concept of sannyas was not challenging enough. It was very appealing to the cowards, to the escapists-those who were weary of life those who were tired of life, those who were incapable of life, they have escaped from life.

It is life that gives you sharpness; otherwise your sword will never be sharp. It is the struggle in life that provokes all the springs of your talents to come to the surface. You have to be intelligent to survive.

My sannyas is the most complicated phenomenon that has ever happened on the earth because I don’t say to you leave the world, I say live in it, indulge in it, love it enjoy it, go as deeply as possible so your intelligence is sharpened, your life provoked, your dormant sources of energies become dynamic, flowing. And yet keep yourself centered in your being-a watcher on the hills.

Remain an actor and let the life be just a drama where you are fulfilling a certain role. But don’t get identified with the role. Remember continuously that this is a role – that you are a carpenter or a doctor or an engineer or a teacher, husband, wife, mother, father, son – that these are all roles and the earth is a great stage and a great drama is on. God is the author of it and the director of it and you are just actors, participating. When the curtain falls your roles will disappear. You will again be just a pure being. You will not be the role that you had played. The world has to be transformed into an opportunity to remember yourself, for self-remembering. 

Hence sannyas is arduous. And I know that everybody hesitates before they take the jump, but if the desire has arisen, if the longing is there, don’t kill it, because that will be suicidal. Experiment with it, explore this new dimension. You have lived one way-what is the point of going on repeating it again and again? Live this new style too. Who knows? – You may come across god on this way. Who knows? - Fulfillment may await you on this path.

OSHO.