Ma Yoga Maitri
How should I plan to proceed in this method of yours when I go back to Japan?
Do not plan anything. Just go on digging. Things will take their own course. Planning always presupposes frustration. When you plan you create seeds of frustration. Do not plan. Just go on digging. Let it come.
So I say again: "do not plan." Just go on. Let it come by itself. Let it come. It will come. When we plan, we hinder the way of its coming. Because of our plans, the plans we have made, life cannot work. Our plans come in the way. I have made my life without plan and I have never been frustrated. There is no question of frustration.
So, I am always successful! I cannot be a failure as there is no plan against which I calculate. No failure is a failure, no success is a success, only our conceptions and pre-determined plans make them so. If you fail in your plan you feel disappointed; the ego is hurt. If you succeed, the ego is strengthened and it will plan more, ceaselessly, causing perpetual strain and burden on the mind. The ego is always in fear of life. In life we never know what is going to happen, so we make plans for our security. Life disturbs them, as we are not whole and sole. We are only a negligibly small part of the infinite existence,
Ma Yoga Maitri
The plan I was following in Japan, seems to be identical with yours.
Yes, it will be so. The moment you start planning, you begin to compare and contrast. Doubts and fears will catch hold of you. "Will I succeed? Is it possible? What will happen? What will people say?" The moment you plan, the seeds of frustration take root. Now anxiety follows.
So do not plan. Just go on. You do not plan your breathing! You just go on breathing. So let it come easily. And all that comes easily becomes Divine. And all that comes with effort cannot be divine. The divine comes effortlessly. It is in fact coming all the time. So let it come. Just let go of yourself and see; things will begin to move. You will find yourself in the midst of movement, but there will be no anxiety. Then there will not be any trouble created for the mind. If something happens, it is alright. If nothing happens, then too it is alright. Everything is alright with this type of a mind.
Only then you can do something for meditation, otherwise not. Because meditation is not a business, it should not be made a business. Then you will not be helpful to others towards meditation; much less to yourself. Rather, you will be suicidal to your own meditation, as it will be a burden to you.
Ma Yoga Maitri
So I should not plan!
But if you plan for not to plan, then again the same thing will happen. Do not plan - just go on. If meditation has come to you, if something has flowered in you, the perfume will spread. It will work in its own way.
Something has happened to you. You are calm and at ease. Tranquility is achieved. it will work. You will not have to work. It will gather people there. They will come by themselves. They will ask. Let them plan. You just go and meditate. Things will begin to happen. They must happen. Only then they have a beauty of their own - a beatitude, otherwise not.
Business is always tiring. It has no beauty, no joy. Meditation is not a business. Yet it has been converted into a business in India - a flourishing business. There are shops and there are factories. Do not take meditation in this way. You have experienced meditation. You have come to a door. You have seen something. You have felt something. Let it go on. Let God work.
Go completely without planning. Do not think about it at all. You just be there. Your very presence will begin to work. Only then it will be my work. If you plan, then it will not be my work at all. That way, you will be merely distracting yourself and others. You will not be a help to others in meditation if you yourself are tense. You cannot help. You will be helpful only if you go without planning. Just go. Sit there. Meditate and see what happens. Things are bound to take their own course.